So this is the beginning of my weight loss journey.
For as long as I can remember, I've been a big girl. I didn't know until I got to high school just HOW big I was. I wasn't the fancy of my male counterparts' eyes and I justified it by saying I wasn't interested in them either. So I kept growing/going.
This justification is still with me. I went to college and met all kinds of men who loved every pound I owned. So I reasoned that I looked good at my weight and didn't need to lose any of it.
All while this was going on, my mother and two of my cousins were having the gastric bypass surgery; my mother was battling diabetes, high cholesterol, arthritis, high blood pressure, and a plethora of other diseases; my aunt died from complications with diabetes before her 60th birthday; my grandmother had several strokes, a heart murmur, and diabetes before she died from a heart condition at 58; my father was having heart surgery; my father's mother died from diabetes....and I was concerned about how good I looked.
Thankfully, I have not developed any of these diseases or symptoms...yet. I'm praying that by jumping on the bandwagon now, I will increase my years and reverse the damage I've already done.
I've realized that no matter what size I am, there will always be a man wanting to love me. But if I don't change now, he'll bury me sooner than later.
How I'm Losing The Weight: Curves Complete
Starting Weight:.....IDK if I'm ready for that yet...just know it's a lot for right now.
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